Things have been going pretty well since my last post.  I have been trying really hard to stay focused, but not be too regimented.  I get in trouble when I go from one extreme to the other.  I am searching for balance in my life.  I know that I will never go completely without sugar or ice cream.  The tool is finding balance.  When I am really craving ice cream, I make a smoothie.  I have frozen fruit in the freezer, so I use that to replace the ice cream.  I only use fruit, water and  agave nectar.

Something hit me really hard this week.  I purchased a few small pieces of ready-made bar-b-que ribs and some ready-made chinese food at my favorite health food store.  I knew that I probably should not eat that, but it was late and I was hungry, so I got it.  They both tasted pretty good and I enjoyed it until……I woke up the next morning.  I laid in the bed and slowly opened my eyes and I didn’t feel quite right.  I had a mean case of heartburn.  The food was still in my belly from the night before.  My body was desperately trying to break this food down.  I was amazed that the food was still in there, and then I was astonished because I could literally feel my body going through the process of trying to break this food down, and it was struggling.  I have never felt that feeling before.  As I was laying there, the thought came into my head:  “That was dead food that you put into your body last night.  There were no health benefits in it at all.  Your body needs living food!!!”  Since that moment, I have been looking at food differently.  I have been drinking more water and eating more fruits.  I am still working on the vegatable part.

In my post on Sept. 18, 2011.  I expressed my sadness for reaching 400 pounds.  That was a huge wake-up call for me.  I look back at that time, and I was so miserable.  I couldn’t sleep because my back was hurting so bad under the pressure of all of that weight.  I tossed and turned all night, so I wasn’t sleeping well, and then I was tired at work the next day.  I could hardly breathe when I walked.  I didn’t realize how bad off I was until I went back to school and I had to start back on my routine of going from school to school.  I was struggling so much.  Every step was killing my back.  I just felt so uncomfortable.  I think Heavenly Father let me see what my life was going to be like if I kept going in the direction that I was going.  I tried to manage, but I just couldn’t.  I had to make a choice, and I am so glad that I did because my quality of life is so much better.

Since that time, I have only made changes in my eating and I have shed 32 pounds.  I currently weigh 368 pounds.  My goal is to start exercising again.  I need to exercise in the morning because the evenings do not work for me at this time.  I have to master going to bed at a decent time so I can get up and take care of myself in the morning.  That is the next step.   I am on my way; one step at a time.

Check out my favorite foods page on this site.  I just added two new favorite foods.  They are delicious!!

Kyeni