The words:  “The morning breaks; the shadows flee” are from a well known hymn.  That is exactly how I feel right now in my life.  The Lord has blessed me so much these past few of weeks.  I am overwhelmed at the amount of love He has shown me.    I worked really hard on writing a personal inventory of all of the hurtful and dark things that I had to deal with in my life.  More so than that, I looked really objectively at all of those things, and I made sure that I wrote any and all ways that I may have contributed to the problems that I encountered, and or any bad choices that I made that would have lead me to those problems.  In just about every incident that I wrote down, I had a hand in the negative outcome.  This was a change for me.  Over all of these years, I have been blaming other people for the bad things that happened to me, but this time, I took a personal look and I  took responsibility for the things that I did that contributed to the darkness that I experienced.  I had to surrender everything over to the Lord in order to do this.

This process was so freeing to me.  I wrote all of that dark energy down, and I shared it with someone close to me.  By so doing, that darkness couldn’t hide in the shadows of my mind and heart any longer.  I exposed it for what it was.  With the help of my Heavenly Father, I was able to pull all of that darkness into the light, and the light is dispelled it.  I feel so much better now.  I can see where I am, and I know where I am going.  I look at the atonement of Jesus Christ now and I have a new found appreciation for it.  I realize how much the Savior really loves me because He was willing to suffer for all of that darkness that I experienced in my life.  I can now let it go and turn it over to Him because He took those things upon His Self and suffered so I wouldn’t have to.

All of those things have been written down, and now I only have one more thing to do and that is burn those pages.  I will burn them as a symbol of the freedom that I have been given.  Even though I haven’t burned the pages yet, I feel a freedom that I haven’t felt before.  This weekend I went to get my hair done.  I got my hair cut.  She cut about 3 inches off of my head, and I tell you, it was very symbolic.  As she began to cut my hair, each clip freed me of my past life.  When she finished cutting, I looked down on the floor and looked at all of that hair and I realized that I finally am truly Kyeni.  I can now move freely in the light.  I choose to look forward and no longer look back.  I will “press forward with a perfect brightness of hope.”  I am on a new journey now, but it is Kyeni’s journey.  I am a new person, so now it is all about me finding out who I am and who I choose to become.

Kyeni