My journey has been a huge blessing in my life.  It has given me cause to pause and reflect about my life.  I have been able to look a the things that I have gone through in my life and I, with the Lord’s help, have been able to tackle them head on.  That has been a huge relief to me, and I am so grateful for it.  I am making some strides in some aspects of my life, but I still need work in some others.

My biggest issue right now is my eating.  It has been askew lately.  I have been eating Blue Bell’s Homemade Vanilla Ice Cream.  I am not a vanilla ice cream eater.  If I am going to eat ice cream, I want the rich stuff like butter pecan.  Yeah!!!!!  So, the whole vanilla thing was really weird to me until I was in the kitchen one day, and I looked up on the wall and saw the picture of my grandma who passed away about a year ago.  I then realized the connection.  My grandma was my biggest fan musically and spiritually speaking.  She was so good to me, and she always made it clear to me how much she loved me.  She believed in my when no one else did.  She made the best homemade vanilla ice cream on the planet.  It was sooooo good.  When I eat Blue Bell’s homemade vanilla ice cream, it tastes similar to my grandma’s homemade vanilla ice cream.  I have been thinking about her a lot lately.  Now I know that I have been eating it because of my thoughts of her.  I subconsciously transferred my thoughts of her to food.  That is something else that I need to work on.

My grandma suffered from Alzheimer’s disease.  Before she passed away, there were some things that she was not able to accomplish physically and spiritually because of her illness.  So I promised myself that I would make sure that those things were done on her behalf.   A whole year has gone by, so I need to shift my focus and make sure that those things gets done.

Garnette Pegues was and is such a special daughter of God, and I miss her terribly.  She was so smart.  She was a teacher with a Master’s Degree in Elementary Education.  She was such a role model for me.  She was so proud when I became a teacher.  She was so independant and vibrant, so to see that disease just ravish her body was very sad, but I know that she is at peace now and not stuck in a body that stopped working for her a long time ago.

I love you Garnette Pegues, and as I refocus on my journey, the thought of you will be forever in my heart.

Kyeni