Hello Everyone.  Kyeni here.  It has been almost two weeks since my last post.  I have actually been really busy, and then I got sick, and I am just coming out of that. 

It is interesting to me that since I started this journey, I have been able to read my body a lot more.  I am more aware of what my body feels like.  The one thing that I have noticed the most is how I feel after I eat something that is bad for me.  The biggest thing that I have noticed are things that are really greasy and things that contain a lot of sugar.   I immediately fall asleep because my body shuts me down so it can break down the garbage that I just ate.  Yet, I realize again how hard my body is working to protect me.  I have become more aware of the inner workings of my body, and I am going to continue to work on helping my body to help me.

These past few weeks have been a real awakening for me.  I have spoken to several friends and acquaintances, and I was amazed to find out that some of these women have also been abused.  It really opened my eyes because it made me see just how busy Satan has been.  Physical, sexual and emotional abuse are tools that he uses to try and lead people away from the Lord.  The darkness of abuse, whether one is grounded in the gospel or not, can be very destructive to one’s emotional, physical and spiritual well being if left unchecked.  It can be extremely dangerous if one does not have a personal relationship with the Savior.  It was through the love of the Lord that I was able to see the darkness for what it truly was and start moving away from it.  The Lord is that beacon of light in the darkness.  Satan wants you to believe that you are alone and that there is no God, but he is the master deceiver.  In the midst of my darkness, I reached out to the Lord, and He helped me see that He has always been there for me; waiting for me to reach out to Him.  When I did, He opened my eyes and helped me to see and to realize my true potential.  He helped me to see that I am His daughter, born of royal lineage, and that He loves me so much.

The trials that we go through are like obstacles on our course through life.  I have come to realize that I have two choices.  I can either choose to act, or I can choose to allow myself to be acted upon.  These two actions occur every single day of our lives.  The question is:  “Will I choose or will I allow?”    The closer we move towards the Lord by making right choices, the harder it is for the devil to influence us.  He will try, but it will become harder for his influence to sway us because of our spiritual strength.  Of course he is always there waiting for us to take a misstep, but it is up to us to immediately repent and jump right back on the path.  The gift of repentance will help protect us in our times of weakness and allow us to “press forward with a steadfastness in Christ with a perfect brightness of hope.”

Kyeni